A Change of Heart

My bright students engaged in discourse!

A month into my last semester of teaching at Soochow University and the community center in Kunshan, I am amazed at the transformation God has made in my heart. At the beginning of this program, I was so sure that I would not be a classroom teacher. Ever. It was not even a remote option. With all my passion towards fighting the systemic injustices inhibiting educative opportunities worldwide, specifically for young women and girls without White skin privilege, the classroom seemed like a small battlefront compared to the greater war.

But I have finally realized the everyday conversations that I facilitate in the classroom culture that I intentionally foster really do make a difference.

This semester in my writing class, my students have a 3-5 minute group presentation in which they share a song and poem that they think go together. The link between the two works can be anything, a shared theme or a common style, as long as students can explain why the two are connected.

Last week three of my students read a poem by Shu Ting, an important and influential poet especially in the years immediately after the Cultural Revolution. In this poem, Shu Ting writes about romantic love.

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Shu Ting

In their presentation, the students revealed that this poem is a response to another, ancient poem in which the speaker complains that he cannot find a suitable mate. If a woman is beautiful, she is not talented. If she is talented, she is not beautiful. If she is beautiful and talented, she is aggressive.

I almost fell out of my chair when one of the students said that this is an example of male chauvinism.

I had not taught them this word.

Another student went on to say that the symbols (another word I had not taught them) in Shu Ting’s poem reveal the beauty of equality between romantic partners and has a strong Feminist message.

At the close of their presentation, I had tears in my eyes. Watching these young women interpret poetry with a social justice lens was something I’ll never forget.

This is not something I had explicitly taught them. This was not the point of the assignment. I had not told them to find Feminist works to talk about in class.

It was all their own work; putting pieces together from what I had showed them in class and beyond. From what I have learned about education in China, I am confident that, for the first time, these young women were expressing their personal opinions about social and political issues in front of the whole class without being asked to do so.

In my speaking class, I’ve noticed a similar phenomenon. These students have to present a favorite film and share some dialogue from the film in a 3-5 minute presentation. I have been so impressed with the Feminist lens these students have adopted when talking about their favorite films. For the past two weeks, my students have presented international films that focus on women overcoming familial and societal pressures to achieve their goals and my students have recognized and celebrated this as steps towards Gender Justice.

Of course, I mean, this kind of to be expected.

I talk about gender inequality in class often. I show TED Talks by women of color on topics of representation and sexism. I use words like “shero” to describe women who inspire me and encourage my students to question authority figures – starting with me!

This semester, I have told all of my classes that our goal is to make one million mistakes and they are racking them up by taking chances, making guesses, or admitting “I don’t know” when they don’t know the answer instead of frantically whispering in Chinese to the student sitting next to them whose name I did not call.

They’ve become comfortable with these things in the classroom and I hope that it will translate to other areas of their lives as well, or at least that they will remember and hold on to how it feels to make mistakes, take risks, be brave, and to be praised for it.

The vast majority of my students are female and all of my students are Chinese. Most come from well-developed cities in Jiangsu province and most did not choose English as their major – it was chosen for them based on the results of standardized tests they took in high school.

They are taught that it is polite to not speak until spoken to. To not raise their hands when the teacher asks a question, but rather to wait to be called on to speak. They have been made fun of by teachers in the past for saying the wrong answer. They have been taught to have the correct answer OR ELSE which results in a fearful environment in schools and an “us versus them” mentality between teachers and students.

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A 1950s ad for USA-based company, taken from this article.

They have been ingrained with common sayings and cultural messages which denote the importance of men over women and the importance of finding someone who’s willing to marry you over finding your dream career. And they are not alone.

These same obstacles are presented to women around the world and education can break these barriers, freeing young scholars to take the risks, ask the questions, raise their voices, and defend their opinions. These are the traits that are necessary to achieve great things and they are not lacking in my 130 female students or my 20 male students. They have, however, been stifled or labeled as inappropriate, undesirable, unseemly, for the vast majority of them based on their gender.

I do not know what my students will become. I haven’t told them yet that I’m returning to the USA, but I am comforted by the fact that Soochow University keeps foreign teachers with the underclassmen and since my students are going to be Juniors next year, I would not be teaching them even if I did stay longer. But I feel so incredibly blessed to be able to see the fruits of these seeds that I DID NOT PLANT. I know my students have unlimited potential and world-shaking ideas that they carried with them when they first walked through the class door. I did not put these ideas into them and will not dare to take any credit for that.

I hope and pray that whatever I did through these weeks and weeks together nurtured their seeds and enriched their soil.

The fruits that they are beginning to show in my classroom feel like the best parting gift they don’t even know they are bestowing on me.

I am part of a team leading a webinar about Feminist Liberation Theology for the GMF class in a couple of weeks. I would like to share a TED Talk that has recently spoken to me by renowned Nigerian author Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie. My fellow GMFs will watch this TED Talk as part of their preparation for our web-based discussion. I hope you find as much inspiration and insight from her words as I have!

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Lent: A Season of Seeking

February, the coldest month in Suzhou, began with leftover snow still clinging to rooftops and shady alleys. It had been years since I’d last seen snow, and many years since it had snowed in Suzhou according to my local friends. With only five months left in the GMF program, these special views made a strong impression. I am currently finalizing the curriculum and syllabus for both of the courses I will teach during my last semester at Soochow University.


Because it is my last chance to teach and learn from my students, I have decided to follow two passions: poetry and film. My writing class will use poetry as a lens for independent research, critical thinking, writing reviews, and of course, creative composition. Though my speaking classes last semester excelled in debate, I want to give them space to produce their own spoken English through the creation of films. Students will study oration skills and basic oral storytelling traditions of narrative ark to support the conception and production of short films that will be their final group project.

I recently read in an online article that said that during Chinese New Year, 1/5th of the world’s population is off work. I’m not sure about the accuracy of this figure, but it is true that during the holiday season many businesses, as well as schools and government offices, are closed. Still, even today, several stores on my street remain closed despite the fact that the official work holiday ended last Friday. I ordered a small heater off the famous Chinese internet shop Taobao at the beginning of the month and did not receive it until a few days ago because there were no delivery or postal services operational for the week of Spring Festival! During Chinese New Year everything is closed, so a couple of friends and I took a quick trip to Beijing for part of the holiday.

I was able to spend a day on a mostly empty Great Wall.


Though I’ve seen pictures of the Forbidden City stuffed full of tourists from end to end, I even got a couple of pictures without any people in them at all! (Though these were mostly of interesting roofs.)


The Summer Palace was stunning in the clear, cold air, with its great, central lake frozen solid.

The hostel we stayed in was run by a Chinese family who really treated us like family on New Years Eve. All of the guests helped make dumplings from scratch, rolling out the little circles of dough and spooning just the right amount of pork and vegetable filling to still allow for the careful pinching that sealed the dumpling’s edges. We watched “The Gala” – a TV special that includes skits, songs, and, this year (the year of the dog) we saw humans in canine costumes dancing with four-legged counterparts dressed in skirts. According to my Chinese friends, this program is broadcasted into every Chinese home with a television set and has become as central to the tradition as the eating of sunflower seeds and peanuts.

With the holiday season ending and Lent’s beginning, the change of seasons also starts. Now instead of snow, it’s rain. Instead of brown, bare branches, I see the first flowers and buds of spring on my walk down the old streets of old town (the part of Suzhou where I live).


Beginning to focus on the coming celebration of Easter, I can’t help feeling like Christmas was just yesterday. This might be partly due to the fact that in China, Christmas decorations are kept up until the end of Spring Festival so I’ve still seen rosy-cheeked Santas in family-run restaurant windows and plastic cone Christmas trees standing a story tall in the shopping mall for a couple of months now. Still, Lent snuck up on me this year and I can’t believe it’s already one-fourth of the way through.

Instead of buying a new planner in January, I decided to start using the 2018 Prayer Calendar released by the UMC. This tool has provided extra structure and more reminders about spiritual disciplines through daily-suggested Bible readings, testimonies from the global church, and a listing of all missionaries’ birthdays so I can remember them in my prayers. Church activities and service opportunities have been minimal during this quiet season in China, so I’m looking forward to the resumption of the normal rhythms I’ve gotten used to living and serving here.

As I am about to re-enter the classroom as a teacher, my heart aches for my home state and the recent school shooting that took place there. Though I am usually good with words, I find it hard to find something to say in the face of another tragedy of this nature.

Some of my friends from other parts of the world have questioned me about the practices and policies in regards to access to guns in the USA. Many know about the suggestions made through the Twitter handle of a world leader proposing the militarization of public schools. All of them are as confused and concerned as I am by the irrational and intolerable, impulsive and irresponsible behavior of many state and federal politicians, especially those who receive campaign funding from the NRA and then seek to defame high school students participating in democracy.

These words from an article by Amanda Erickson posted on the Chicago Tribune website on February 15, 2018, provide some context for understanding how gun violence in the USA compares to the rest of the world:

“So far this year, there have been at least seven school shootings in the United States. That’s more than one a week, more school shootings than many countries have ever had.”

I was surprised at these words from the same article, particularly by the lack of available information about gun violence in my home country, especially considering that the data on school violence around the world collected by the Academy for Critical Incident Analysis indicates 57 incidents in which someone was injured or killed on school grounds took place in the first decade of this century and that 28 of these occurred in the USA.


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“Since 2000, there have been more than 188 shootings at schools and universities, my Washington Post colleague Philip Bump estimates. (It’s hard to cite a definitive number, because the federal government does not study gun violence in the United States. The National Rifle Association has opposed any measure to fund research or accounting of America’s gun epidemic.)

More than 200 students have been killed. At least 200 more have been injured.”

Read the full article here.

In China, I always feel completely safe strolling home from the grocery store or using public transportation by myself to get from one side of town to the other or walking through the university campus. One thing I am not looking forward to about going back to the USA is the threat of violence that has become so normalized in my country but which is bizarre, tragic, and preventable in the eyes of the rest of the world.

In this Christian season of sacrifice and seeking while preparing for the coming suffering and subsequent victory of Jesus Christ over death, it is my prayer that the God of Justice and Mercy will intervene through righteous people in holy protest against the gun violence that plagues the schools, students, and teachers of my homeland.

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Year 1 in Review

Local sites in Suzhou

I have officially been in China for over one year and all the clichés about how quickly time goes by fittingly describe my perspective with only one semester of service left.

Maybe it’s just a natural product of growing older; that as more years pass they each seem to have passed more quickly than the last. Maybe it’s because the GMF program marks this particular season of my life in specific terms, a certain number of months designated for mission service, so my time here always felt temporary, finite, and fleeting. Maybe it’s the mental countdown that, though always winding down, only audibly ticks in conversation with new acquaintances in the constantly rotating cast of English-speakers from all over the globe who have come to Suzhou to work or study. “How long have you been here?” with some variation of, “And how long will you be staying?” following. Because of how many new people I meet through work, church, and playing music, I’ve heard myself give changing answers to these questions each step of the way. And yet I’m still shocked to now find myself as one of those people giving an answer in years and not in months.

Students Debating


This past semester, I taught English speaking class for the first time and we did debates on topics the students chose. Students were organized into debate teams and each student was assigned a lens to guide their research and conversation: political, economic, religious/philosophical, and social. They worked in their debate teams to share research, build their arguments avoiding the several logical fallacies we had learned about in class, construct questions to challenge opposing points of view, form rebuttals to anticipate questions from opponents, and write opening and closing statements.

My writing classes learned about the short story, and over the course of the semester, each student composed a short story of 5-7 pages with 6 structure points (exposition, rising action, climax, etc.), 2-4 characters, at least 5 scenes, and an internal conflict related to an external conflict. In the first semester, when I told these same students to choose a topic for their personal narrative essay or their research paper they panicked because they were not used to having such a high degree of agency in their learning process. However, their creativity and enthusiasm in the second semester floored me.

Writing Workshop

Many stories included supernatural elements, like characters with superpowers, and some were dark, murder mysteries. Most stories were some kind of dramatic romance that spanned years despite my encouragement for them to focus on one or two days in the protagonist’s life. One of the key features of the short story genre is the limited time frame in which the action of the story occurs, but I quickly realized I had to prioritize general creative writing elements like character development and grammar over specific norms of the particular form. Although the finished products were admittedly a far cry from Pulitzer Prize winners, this was the longest composition in English my students had ever created and almost all of my students did not believe they could compose 5 pages in English at the beginning of the semester. Through periodic writing workshops on segments of the short story, each student was able to assess and be assessed by their peers using the same criteria I ultimately used to give their final grade on the project.


I have seen so many changes in my students during the time I’ve spent learning and growing in China, but have also noticed spiritual and professional transformation in my self.

A picnic with friends from Bible Study

Nothing moves my heart toward God more than multicultural and multilingual sacred moments. During GMF training and the Mid Terms, I soaked in the celebration of diversity within the body of Christ through the songs, dances, prayers, and conversations shared among my brothers and sisters from different backgrounds. My church family in China is similarly diverse. The lessons for each Bible Study small group session are facilitated by a Ukrainian man, the opening songs are led by a guy from Indonesia, my closest friend in the group is Taiwanese, and the two girls who are my prayer partners are from Nigeria. Living in this global church reality has helped me see the importance and benefits of cross-cultural ministry.

Though an ESOL endorsement was part of my Masters program, teaching students who speak multiple languages and who have only studied English in school gave me new insights. I have learned so much from my students especially because I have worked with the same group of about 150 undergraduates for my 2 previous semesters and am scheduled to work with them again in my final semester. We have created a unique classroom culture that blends my educative philosophy with their experiences and expectations. For example, in my first semester when I asked students if they had any questions, no one would dare to raise their hands but instead they would begin whispering to each other in Chinese. I know now that they would rather whisper to their neighbor than reveal to the whole class that they do not understand something, but after some convincing they seemed to understand that I need their questions to guide my instruction and that I value their questions so much more than their silence. To reinforce the habit of asking questions, I design my instruction and content delivery in chunks so that after each chunk, I tell students that the class will not move forward until someone asks at least one question. With this practice, I have developed an understanding of what tends to confuse them and can implement strategies to aid their comprehension.

As I look ahead to the last 6 months of my time in the GMF program, I want to embrace every opportunity to engage with the local community, connect the church back home to this mission service in China, and grow in personal and social holiness.

I have created this slideshow with 12 images from the past 12 months in China. Enjoy!

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Christmas Has Come

At the beginning of December, I asked God how it could possibly feel anything like Christmas at all, way over here in China.

And my prayer was answered.

My church’s Christmas activities, from a modern Christmas cantata to the classic live nativity, the lighting of the advent candles to the hanging of the greens, were especially meaningful this year. Suzhou International Fellowship (or SIF) has such a diverse, multicultural congregation that, during these different programs, I often heard about Christmas traditions from other parts of the world.

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Image from SIF’s website

Some Swedish friends told me about Lutfisk – a fish preserved in sodium hydroxide for most of the year that is blanched before being eaten on Christmas.

Friends from Mexico talked about Nochebuena celebrations with friends and family lasting well into the early hours of Christmas Day.

Most of China doesn’t really recognize Christmas, and for the non-Christian people of China who do celebrate, it’s mainly a shopping holiday. The recent tradition of gifting apples on Christmas Eve, because of the way the word “apple” sounds like the word “peace” in Mandarin, inspired a Chinese friend to warn me that on Christmas Eve apples are very expensive or hard to find!

After a beautiful Christmas Eve service on Sunday morning and my weekly Bible Study small group’s Christmas gift exchange, I was able to spend Christmas morning with a family; unwrapping presents, playing games, and building the new Lego kits the children had just received. This was all such a blessing and really made the holiday away from home feel like “real” Christmas time.

But honestly, for me, Christmas really came in a moment of quiet reflection.

While re-reading Luke 2 alone, after the bustle had subsided, I realized it’s really not a happy, simple story!

In a tense political environment of foreign military occupation, despite the reasonable skepticism of Jesus’ soon-to-be extended family faced with the human impossibility of the Immaculate Conception, after the treacherous 100-mile journey from Nazareth to Bethlehem, in the hopeless vulnerability of Mary and Joseph’s homelessness, the Messiah was born.

The solitude and social isolation of the shepherds contrasted against the majesty of the Seekers from the East at the manger should remind us of the ongoing struggle against classism and growing economic inequality around the world and in the USA; and how whole-heartedly seeking Jesus can lead us all to the same shared space of humility in God’s presence.

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Jesus’ early years spent as a refugee in a foreign country after his family narrowly escaped a threatened ruler’s violent decree sounds a lot like modern humanitarian crises such as the tragic violence in Syria and the exploitation of Africans who are enslaved by human traffickers promising transport to asylum in Europe but who instead are sold by traffickers as day laborers in Libya.

Obviously, it is a happy story for believers because it is the start of the New Covenant with God that allow us to be adopted as brothers and sisters of and in Christ, but those tangible social justice issues of Women’s Health and Human Rights, international refugees and migration, attacks against Human Rights and specifically the Rights of the Child by the politically powerful, all intersect in the story of God’s radical love unleashed on the world through the miracle of the birth of Jesus Christ.

The Christmas story is miraculous because of the ways God divinely intervenes and inspires each person that we read about in the varying Gospel accounts. But it is also miraculous because person after person chooses to follow God from the place where she or he is familiar to where the going is not easy and even into where it’s most dangerous.

Re-reading this story again this year, I was struck by the fact that Jesus was also, in those early moments, the fruition of what must have been the most challenging months of Mary’s life up to that point. Physically, socially, and politically, both she and Joseph, and their extended families, would have been completely disrupted because of this miraculous, but still unplanned, pregnancy.

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Image from Rethink Worship

Socially, physically, politically, each person in the Christmas story put a lot at risk to fulfill her or his role in the Greatest Story Ever Told. In the midst of all of this striving and difficulty and doubt, there was enduring faithfulness and eventually profoundest joy through the coming of the Savior.

In the first moments of what would become Jesus’ Earth-shaking and history-making life, He was already present and extraordinary as our cosmic, omnipotent Messiah made flesh at that specific time for the ongoing salvation of this world. But he was also something else extraordinary too: a baby. God’s infinite authority and power made even more precious to us because of His human fragility and accessibility after the months and months of Mary’s complicated pregnancy.

Arriving to change the world in the form of an ordinary miracle, the Christ Child invites us once again to embrace Love, Joy, Peace, and Hope like never before.

Just like the people of the Christmas story, we have the opportunity to be part of what God started with creation, fulfilled through Christ, and continues doing today. Through our everyday decisions, God’s Kingdom can be built if we are sensitive to the nudging of The Spirit that inspires us to act in ways that may be dangerous to our comfortable lives.

But this is the way to live out the Christmas story, not just as a holiday at the end of December, but instead as a call to action from the God we serve all the time, who reminds us in Proverbs 31:8-9 that it is our job to, “Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves,/ for the rights of all who are destitute/ Speak up and judge fairly;/ defend the rights of the poor and needy.”’

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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

GMF Midterms

23456206_10155631851001675_104274201389368559_o.jpgTwo weeks ago, I was in Cambodia at the GMF Midterm event with the entire cohort of 45 young adults ages 20-30, originally from everywhere sent to serve everywhere, and now all gathered together for the first time in Phnom Penh. Though the cohort was split during training, some of us having been trained in the USA and some in South Korea, we were able to all come together for 10 days at this point – halfway through our service.

The midterm event lasted from October 28th until November 7th and the weeks before this trip were extra-stressful as I prepared everything necessary for the two weeks of work I would be missing: planning 2 class meetings for each of my 3 different courses, arranging alternative times for my classes to meet before my absences, creating the midterms unique to each of my 5 classes, arranging substitutes on two college campuses with the Chinese-speaking staff of Soochow University to administer the exams on my behalf, all while dancing on the line of telling the university where I was going but not the entire story of why I had to be gone for 2 weeks in the middle of the semester – particularly why I would be missing the extremely rare, extremely important, week-long, official government review of the university’s teachers and administrators.

Once I finally made it to Phnom Penh in one piece, I found God was already there and moving. This incredible time of retreat/recharge/refocus utilized several elements of discussion, discipleship, and debriefing, including morning devotions, spiritual practices, individual meetings, group discussions, engagement with the local community, and nightly activities planned by GMFs serving in the same region.

The GMFs serving in the same region as the location of the conference went first, so for Asia Night Café the GMFs serving in South Korea, Japan, Philippines, Cambodia, China, and Hong Kong brought various treats: sweet, salty, and even wasabi. I brought the rose tea pictured below!


There was Latin America/Caribbean Night Café, Africa, and Europe as well. Because it organized by region of place of assignment, because it was up to the GMFs to plan and facilitate each night, and because everyone was invited to participate in these regional introductions, the boundaries between those trained in the USA and those trained in South Korea quickly dissolved.

However, other boundaries were tested through Open Space Discussions and GMF Forums. The cohort chose a dozen different topics to be discussed at different times, ranging from Fundraising to Food Safety to Feminism. After each Open Space Discussion, a proposal could be made that would be shown to and ultimately approved or disapproved of by the whole group during one of the GMF Forums. At certain points, this process reminded me a lot of the Global Young People’s Convocation and Legislative Assembly of 2014. Knee-jerk responses about some of the issues that proposals were attempting to navigate quickly showed our biases and the resulting limitations of our ability to be involved in something as a united body.

Besides talking about issues we chose, we were also shown some of the critical issues of our beautiful host country, Cambodia. Many of the difficulties faced by Cambodians today are the lingering legacy of a challenging history. After gaining independence from France in 1953, the Vietnam War spread into Cambodia with the USA bombing the country from 1969 until 1973. The Cambodian Genocide by the Chinese-backed anti-intellectual military group, the Khmer Rogue, lasted only from 1975 to 1979 but during this period, about a quarter of the population of Cambodia was killed. The Cambodian-Vietnamese War from 1979 until 1991 followed until a coup in 1997 put Prime Minister Hun Sen and the Cambodian People’s Party in power, a position they maintain today.

23116726_10210331890553546_6453685565392764432_o.jpgI continue to process the sights, sounds, and smells of the Tuol Sleng Genocide Museum (a few blocks away and clearly visible from the rooftop of the centrally-located hotel where we were staying in Phnom Penh) and the Killing Fields (what was once an orchard outside the city corrupted by the Khmer Rogue as a site for mass killings of men, women, and children). As an American citizen and as a resident of China, I am haunted by the roles both countries played in Cambodia’s tragic history.

23331359_10210351995016145_6712635852557561156_o.jpgSeveral UMC missionaries are working in Cambodia, and hearing their stories after confronting such dark realities of human greed and global politics uplifted everyone’s spirits. There is hope, and I believe God is at work in Cambodia in many ways.

Specifically, several of the UMC missionaries focus on promoting the rights of young women and girls, and access to education. They support scholars at each phase of the educative process, and in Phnom Penh, we were able to meet students pursuing higher education in the capital city. These UMC missionaries work to secure access to education despite the cultural bias against educating females, the physical danger faced by young girls walking miles through the countryside to get to school, the financial burden of school costs, the lack of teachers, school-related resources, and classroom space. In a nation where most of the population is under 30 years old, competition for jobs is high and opportunities for higher education are rare.

Another aspect of Midterms that really moved me was the time for sharing Sacred Moments. Each GMF gets 5 uninterrupted minutes to share a Sacred Moment from their placement site – a time when they experienced God in the unexpected. These testimonies ranged from the extravagant gratitude of someone receiving simple help in Malawi to miraculous physical healing during revivals in Brazil to finding oneself perfectly suited to the unexpected work God had waiting in Germany. All around the world, God is moving. And I am a part of that. And so are you.

My time in Cambodia stays with me even as I return to the normalcy of life in Suzhou: class, church, teaching, friends, groceries, playing music, grading papers. The Midterm Event helped me remember that every day I have had here, and every day I have left, is a precious offering, a small but worthy contribution, to sharing that Great Love which is higher and deeper than I can even imagine.

If you would like to know more about the work the UMC is doing in Cambodia, please check out the following links:





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Start of a New Semester

20170125_134356A little less than a month in to my second semester teaching at Soochow University, I am back settled in to Suzhou and my new routine.

This semester, I am teaching three different classes: Sophomore Writing, Sophomore Speaking, and American History and Culture. Lesson planning and preparation has been more time consuming than last semester because I am teaching several different lessons per week on two different campuses of Soochow University. But thankfully, I have almost all of the same students as last year!

For a teacher like me, having the same students is very important. The classroom culture I worked to create with my students over the course of the last semester can be built upon and expanded. This means I do not have to start from scratch with a classroom full of bright but painfully shy twenty year olds. My students already know that making mistakes is a celebrated part of the learning process in my classroom and that their contributions are valuable assets for my teaching style. These students who have had classes with me in the past are more willing to try alternative learning methods and get out of their comfort zone to learn something in a new way.

I also have learned so much from these students about teaching at the college level, teaching in the students’ second language, and cross-cultural curriculum development and implementation. We know each other’s quirks and strengths, so I am confident that we will all be able to grow as learners through the coursework.


The Joy and fulfillment I feel after getting back into the classroom, and the enthusiastic response to this work from my students, has re-affirmed that Teaching is a Spiritual Gift that God has given me to serve others. Though so much has changed in my life over the past nine months of mission service, it is comforting to see this common thread throughout my work in the church.

Thinking about the continued presence of this Spiritual Gift in my life led me to re-take the Spiritual Gifts Assessment offered online by the UMC. It had been a while since I last examined my Spiritual Gifts this way.

Some of the results surprised me! I received Tongues, Interpretation of Tongues, and Shepherding from the assessment. As the daughter of two UMC ministers and an active member of youth groups and Bible studies growing up, I had taken the Spiritual Gifts Assessment several times before in my life, but I had never seen these three gifts as some of my strongest.

Looking around me, to the call God has on my life and the way I have chosen to follow that call, these gifts make sense for the work I am doing now. Though I did not previously recognize those fruits in myself, God is always working on our hearts and equipping us for the kingdom-building work ahead. I pray you will be open to the nudging of the Holy Spirit as God continues to transform us all for the mission work of life as Christ’s ambassadors!

Since my last blog post about my time in Gansu, I was blessed by a visit to Taiwan with fullsizeoutput_6a4bmy sister, Tiffania. This was a much-needed week of relaxation and fun! We went to a beach, visited natural hot springs, and spent a day in the mountainous tea-growing region outside of the city. Because my sister served in the Global Mission Fellow’s predecessor, the Mission Intern program, she completely understands the challenges and joys of international mission service. It was so refreshing to speak openly about my mission work and to be able to introduce myself as a missionary, even if just for a week.

In about a month, the 2017-2019 class of Global Mission Fellows will meet in Cambodia for our Mid Term Event. This means missionaries from around the world will be traveling to one place to meet, process, and re-focus for the second half of our service. Please keep this conference in your prayers as there are visa issues, travel arrangements, and other logistical obstacles to overcome before we can be together.

cropped-13909370_10153607766496415_8437736464701999942_o.jpgAlthough I am thousands of miles away, my heart aches for the communities affected by the recent hurricanes, in my home state of Florida and also Texas and Puerto Rico. Please join me in praying for those suffering and in taking action for those less fortunate. I am so thankful for my friends and family who were not severely impacted by these storms but there is a lot of relief work to be done! Please check out the following links or click on the image from the UMCOR page for more information about how you can get involved and respond to these natural disasters:

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I also have a joy to report! My best friend Carly is coming to visit me in China during the upcoming National Holiday week. She and I met six years ago while we were both serving as summer camp counselors at Warren W. Willis Camp, a ministry of the UMC. We were both involved in the Wesley Foundation of Florida State University and later, she helped with my work as a Youth Ministry Director of John Wesley UMC in Tallahassee, Florida. She is a huge blessing in my life and I am so happy to have her here to celebrate my birthday in just a few days! If you have a spare moment in your prayer time, I’d really appreciate prayers for safe travel for her and a great visit.

Thank you for keeping up with my blog posts and email blasts, which I will be sending out monthly. If my story connects with you, I encourage you to join me on my journey as a missionary! Please visit my Support page for more information on how to be part of my call to engage with local communities, connect the church in mission, and grow in personal and social holiness.

A Month In Gansu

In the blink of an eye, my first semester at Soochow University ended and my summer working in Gansu province began.

The Amity Foundation (the faith-based Chinese NGO I have been primarily serving through the English Clubs in Kunshan) has several international volunteer opportunities. Amity’s Summer English Program utilizes the talents of willing volunteers to make a lasting impact in less developed parts of China. According to the Amity website, “the Amity Summer English Program (SEP) invites English speakers to volunteer in training Chinese teachers of English,” and “provides Chinese teachers of English with a chance to upgrade their listening and speaking skills through an intensive four weeks of classroom and other activities with native or near-native English speakers (preferably educated to college level).”


This year’s team mainly consisted of volunteers from Germany with a few North Americans. It was inspiring to meet these men and women willing to give of their time and energy to promote English literacy in a foreign country. For many of the volunteers, this was their first time travelling in Asia and their first time teaching in a formal classroom setting.

Although the week of orientation and training in Nanjing was completed as a whole group, four volunteers out of this group were not assigned to serve through the SEP. Instead, we would serve through the Summer English Camp.

This program is focused on delivering three one-week Summer English Camps to local students in rural parts of China. My team consisted of two second-generation Chinese-American underclassmen on summer break from college and Chie, the newly arrived GMF from my cohort who was also assigned to serve in Suzhou with Amity and Soochow University for the 2016-2018 term.

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In the second week of July, we were sent to Jiuquan in the western province of Gansu. This city has a long history and was once a stop on the Silk Road. Relatively small by Chinese standards, about one million people live in Jiuquan, though it is fairly remote and rarely visited by foreigners.

As team leader, I designed a set schedule for each day of the five-day camp that included warm-up games and songs for the welcome, two hour-long English lessons in the morning with a snack break in between, and recess, a craft, and review activities of the morning lessons in the afternoon.


Monday was primarily a “get to know you” day with activities designed to informally assess students’ fluency levels and allow the students to get acquainted with the teachers and each other. On Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday, we split the students into two groups for formal English lessons and the four volunteers rotated leading the lessons in pairs. The two younger volunteers taught bilingual lessons in Chinese and English, and assisted Chie and me with translations as needed. On Fridays, we reviewed all eight lessons from the week and had a closing ceremony open to the parents which including a Talent Show and personalized certificate ceremony.


For three weeks, we ran the Summer English Camp Monday through Friday from 9AM until we departed for our hotel in town each evening around 6PM.


Unfortunately, after successfully completing the first week of camp, Chie had to return to Suzhou to resolve some issues with her Residence Permit and she was unable to return to Gansu province during the Summer English Camp. These issues have since been resolved, and she has officially begun her service as a GMF! Praise God!

And now that I am settled back in Suzhou, I can certainly admit that, looking back, this certainly was a hard summer.

Any educator will agree that co-teaching is challenging, and any camp director will say the same thing about leading a team to implement three weeks of programming. Doing both of those things in a rural, cross-cultural setting; in a team that, for the majority of the time, consisted of only myself and two teenagers; in a context where all the local staff, people, students, other team members fluently spoke a language I can only produce a few sentences in; is even more challenging.


But God never sends us into these situations empty-handed.

All my years directing Vacation Bible School, youth group, and children’s Sunday school in various local UMCs across the state of Florida were preparing me for this work. And this work, compounded by those previous experiences, is preparing me for the next big work that will once again push me to my limits; giving me the chance to grow in many ways, and especially in humility and faith as dependency on God becomes less and less optional in more and more difficult conditions.


I thought that, because I have lived in Suzhou for 7 months, I would find familiarity in the culture of Gansu. Instead, I was gawked at by strangers in the street, on the bus, on the train, in a way I’d never experienced in the more globalized Chinese cities I have previously visited. This was also compounded by the fact that the two other Summer English Camp volunteers are Chinese, so the extra-intense, heavier, more uncomfortable stares from people who look different than me were not distributed across a group of foreigners, but rather focused entirely on me.

Because of these three tough weeks, I can now sympathize more deeply with those who have experienced the embarrassment and isolation of not belonging to the majority culture of a community. I’ve never known before what it’s like to stand out so much while trying to do normal things like buy groceries or catch a taxi. One evening, a pair of police officers knocked on my hotel room door because a fellow hotel guest reported to the local police department that a foreigner was staying there. It almost discourages a person from wanting to go out in public at all.

mmexport1501847846668Bridging this experience to the bigger picture, I realize that, despite these uncomfortable encounters, I still can barely imagine what it’s like for those members of marginalized communities, particularly those without native-English and/or white-skin privilege in the USA, who face not only the embarrassment and isolation of sticking out that I experienced in Jiuquan, but who have been and continue to be faced with torch-bearing fellow citizens carrying out violent acts of terrorism in the name of “racial” superiority echoing a message of division and hatred once spoken by Hitler, one of modern Western history’s most hated figures.

Although I am serving in China, the mission work I have been called to is global and I see the connections between my work here, my multicultural personal background, and the domestic terrorism plaguing my country of origin.

I can only hope that, as an educator and co-learner, I can equip students here in China to educate themselves on these issues involving both the construct of race and the moral evil of discrimination that the USA so plainly demonstrates to the international community. I pray that the impact my students will have on the world will make a difference, and that the churches and communities in the USA that forged me will answer Christ’s call to action against evil in the world, to bring God’s Kingdom.

A big part of our missionary training was focused on community organizing for social change to address injustice. Though I intend to get more involved in the international context where God has sent me, in light of recent events in my home country, I urge you, reader, Christian, friend, whoever you are, to allow this hard work to push you to the limits of your comfort zone and beyond, to your next level of humility and faith in your relationship with God. We are called to action to align ourselves to God’s Will.

Isaiah 1:16-17

“Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean;

Put away the evil of your doings from before My eyes.

Cease to do evil,

Learn to do good;

Seek justice,

Rebuke the oppressor;

Defend the fatherless,

Plead for the widow.”

Zechariah 7:8-14

And the word of the Lord came again to Zechariah: “This is what the Lord Almighty said: ‘Administer true justice; show mercy and compassion to one another. Do not oppress the widow or the fatherless, the foreigner or the poor. Do not plot evil against each other.’

“But they refused to pay attention; stubbornly they turned their backs and covered their ears. They made their hearts as hard as flint and would not listen to the law or to the words that the Lord Almighty had sent by his Spirit through the earlier prophets. So the Lord Almighty was very angry.

“‘When I called, they did not listen; so when they called, I would not listen,’ says the Lord Almighty. ‘I scattered them with a whirlwind among all the nations, where they were strangers. The land they left behind them was so desolate that no one traveled through it. This is how they made the pleasant land desolate.’”

Proverbs 31:8-9

Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves,

for the rights of all who are destitute.

Speak up and judge fairly;

defend the rights of the poor and needy.

Jeremiah 22:3

“This is what the Lord says: ‘Do what is just and right. Rescue from the hand of the oppressor the one who has been robbed. Do no wrong or violence to the foreigner, the fatherless or the widow, and do not shed innocent blood in this place.’”

Micah 6:8

He has shown you, O mortal, what is good.

And what does the Lord require of you?

To act justly and to love mercy

and to walk humbly with your God.

Matthew 25:40-43

“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

“Then he will say to those on his left, ‘Depart from me, you who are cursed, into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels. For I was hungry and you gave me nothing to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, I was a stranger and you did not invite me in, I needed clothes and you did not clothe me, I was sick and in prison and you did not look after me.’

Proverbs 29:7

The righteous care about justice for the poor,

but the wicked have no such concern.

For more information about how to get involved in the USA, check out any of the following links! Better yet, do your own Google search! Feel free to reach out to me. We are in this together!

Charity Navigator

Showing Up for Racial Justice

American Civil Libterties Union

National Center for Law and Economic Justice

Thank you for keeping up with my blog posts and email blasts, which I will be sending out monthly. If my story connects with you, I encourage you to join me on my journey as a missionary! Please visit my Support page for more information on how to be part of my call to engage with local communities, connect the church in mission, and grow in personal and social holiness.